It sounds like you're facing a tough situation related to wanting to make yourself throw up. It's important to know this can be harmful to your health both physically and mentally. If you're dealing with feelings that make you want to engage in self-induced vomiting, reaching out to a healthcare professional or a support group might be really beneficial. What's prompting these concerns for you? It's important to address the root cause, and I'd be happy to chat more about it or other ways to cope.